Day 4

Last night was by far the hardest night for me! I had planned to cook Saturday's dinner in order to save time, but every minute I was awake I was restless with cravings for food. Decided to make another glass of lemonade and after chugging it, didn't feel hungry but my mind was still on food. As soon as I went upstairs with my Chocolate Smooth Move and got cuddly under the covers with my book, I was fine. Its funny how a good book can whisk you away, and its further proof that my desire to eat was a craving and not real hunger.

This morning I woke up at 7:25am, completely refreshed. It's been a long time since I woke up voluntarily while the kids were still fast asleep. I went downstairs and made breakfast for everyone without fantasizing about what it would taste like. I didn't have a desire to eat and I set out the omelettes, bagels, cream cheese and orange juices as if they were inedible objects. Who thought I could feel so energetic and healthy after not eating for three days?

After the inlaws arrived, everyone left for the first game and I woke up ds#3 and bathed and fed him. I had promised my mom to help her with the brunch, so I packed up my salt water flush and my lemonade supplies.

My salt water flush made me feel nauseous and a little cranky. But unlike in the beginning I knew that moving slowly and speaking sparsely would help me get through it. It was a good thing I was helping my mom with food while bloated with the flush because there was some good stuff there- warm croissants with chicken salad, triangular puff pastry patties filled with ground beef, cinnamon french toast, and a fruit salad along with tangerine juice. I was so surprised because normally I would be salivating but I just looked at the food and drank my lemonade. It was as if I remembered that long ago I used to eat but had now evolved into a lemonade-maplesyrup-cayenne drinking mammal and the food didn't tempt me. It was because my body was not rumbling with hunger and my mind had quieted down, used to the fact that it was not getting anything to eat! My poor tummy...

Flush took a little longer to work today, wonder what that means? The rest of the afternoon went by quickly with no thoughts of food. I even made dinner for everyone else (one of my favorite dishes) and though I wished I could enjoy the taste, I decided to have my herbal mint tea early.

8:51pm
Finished my book and am going to stay up a bit longer to watch a movie, however, a bit scared to do so in the family room a.k.a FOOD ROOM. Comfy couches, big screen TV and the refrigerator behind me? I didn't want to deal with the cravings from last night, but maybe they wouldn't come?

The most amazing thing about today is unlike Day 1 I am not always thinking of food. Its kind of freeing to think that we are okay without eating solids as long as we're getting calories from somewhere!

On a side note: My inlaws are so polite, I'm sure they think I've lost it to do this voluntarily! At dinner tonight my father in law realized that I'm not eating solid food...he had thought I was drinking lemonade along with my regular diet. LOL! I guess not everyone is as into natural healing and homeopathic stuff as I am. For me its always been a small part of my life, even though I spent my earlier years rolling my eyes at my mom whenever she asked if I had 'gone' well enough!!

Today is the first day that I can easily see myself going 10 days. Just have to keep away from tempting food because I LOVE FOOD!!!!! So if I can do it, anyone can.